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I have one close friend who is Irish but she no longer lives in this country.
I feel so lonely and in need of affection
My university friends are scattered around Ireland. My loneliness takes me by surprise at times.
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With two little ones I was never alone but desperately lonely every single day. My needs were quite literally bottom on the list of those to be met.
I was able to not only let off steam through blog posts but to interact online with people in the same situation.
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